There's a war, that's constantly waged in my mind

A battle between happiness and hurt by design

I wish I could erase it and replace it with time

But it never seems to leave when I want it to die, yeah, uh

And there's no hope for me left

I scream in a way that is silence at best

If there's a better way to get this shit off my chest

Then let me know cause right now I'm just feeling distressed

You motherfuckers be taking this shit for granted

It's true that everybody lives with the cards their handed

I try to be happy at all times, but I get depressed around

The winter and fall times

This depression has got me searching for truth

I try to keep it away while I'm here in the booth

And sometimes I think it feels more like a noose

But you don't understand cause you

You don't know what it's like to have bullets aimed at your chest

You don't know what it's like to be so fucking depressed

That you wish that your whole life would collapse

In a bloody mess in the arms

Of the person who ignored your every intent

You don't know what it's like to be ridiculed

You don't know what it's like

To see that motherfucking gash on your wrist

Know how it feels to be lonely as shit

Know what its like to be labeled a misfit abandoned

Emotionally damaged and shit

Knowing that you got nowhere to run

Knowing that you'll never have the chance to be a kid

Or ever have fun

Remembering the settling sun

You ain't never been ripped from your home

Begging to God it was done

You ain't never slept outside in the cold

On the concrete, praying and hoping that somebody was home

You ain't never see roaches or rats

You ain't never been exposed to these facts

There's a war, that's constantly waged in my mind

A battle between happiness and hurt by design

I wish I could erase it and replace it with time

But it never seems to leave when I want it to die, yeah, uh

And there's no hope for me left

I scream in a way that is silence at best

If there's a better way to get this shit off my chest

Then let me know cause right now I'm just feeling distressed

You motherfuckers be taking this shit for granted

It's true that everybody lives with the cards their handed

I try to be happy at all times, but I get depressed around

The winter and fall times

This depression has got me searching for truth

I try to keep it away while I'm here in the booth

And sometimes I think it feels more like a noose

But you don't understand cause you

You ain't never been scared of the light

Cause the dark was your home

And you scared of the bright side of life

You ain't never been broken inside

You don't know how it feels to see your closest heroes just die

You ain't never been on my side of life

It's fucking gritty and makes me wish

I actually had something to hide

You ain't never seen your parents give up

On each other and on themselves

Whenever they got stuck in a rut

You ain't never been smacked in the face

By both of them and called a disgrace

When you trying to hold onto faith

Cause I'm suburban don't mean shit to me dawg

My fam will roll in 80 deep and stomp the shit out you frauds

You ain't never walked 6 miles to school

While the rain was pouring

While it's storming with no umbrella to use

You ain't never hurt a day in your life

Compared to the shit I promise you

Has definitely been hurting in mine