(Hook) (Tenille Wise)

You’re makin’ it hard for me (2x)

(Me- e- e)

(For me- e- e)

You’re makin’ it hard for me

Makin’ it hard for me

(Me- e- e)

(For me- e- e)

Makin’ it hard

(For me- e- e- )oh

(Verse 1) (Legible)

When I was 8 years old I had a way of sayin' what the other children couldn't, Just knew how to put it

When my mouth was runnin, either they would praise or take my tongue and try to rip it out or cut it

When I got older, my mouth existed just to put my foot in- Lift it off the ground and shove it

Just a youngin' tryin' to make some substance out of nothin'-

Now I'm huntin'

I was told the game was something to avoid and now I run it

Used to spit whatever came to mind but now I'm seeing words potential and the power of 'em

After I'mperfect no more albums comin' But my hours comin'

I'd be writing verses while the shower’s runnin' hoping one day that the Crowd's will love it

Now I'm getting noticed when I'm goin' out in public

Everything I ever wanted in my reach yet I don’t want it Cause it’s all in vain- I need a broader aim

Was making tracks about the things that didn’t matter, thought I’d love it But after P’s and Q’s I noticed that my growth was stunted

So I took a break then wrote this verse cause

Now I see beauty in not achieving the sound I wanted

(Verse 2) (Tenille Wise)

I've only just got here, but I'm, wanting to go back

To when I-

Was a child didn't care bout the right track

It ends abruptly

Changed over night, but baby I'll keep-

Wonderin' wonderin' wonderin' if I'm okay

While the -innocent ignorant tolerance just slips away

No such- thing as forever, and anyone would add a day

I see- people who don't care just putting their life to waste

So I'll be- asking these questions until the end of days

Will I fade awayyy?

(Verse 3) (Legible)

Do you ever question life?

Sometimes I really look at friends of mine

Like “dang. We all look so grown up now”

And reflect on times When stress was light and we'd hit Adventureland and scream on every ride

Xan you told me I'm getting nostalgic and I guess you're right

My friends are getting married and moving across the planet

I just feel like I was left behind

Emotionless, but all those feelings that are kept inside turn people like me to the sentimental type

Just 6 more months of recess would've been real nice

Now every sledding hill just looks like an incline

Before I thought I'd be a world explorer but in reality I just wanna sit tight

I know I'm past my childhood when my definition of a lit time is talking ‘bout work with my friends and staying inside

Perceiving the future has always been a painful gift of mine And I just know I'll be stuck in a pattern with a job to get by

But my future isn't bright, every dream is a dim light

Already going in circles at 18 years of age, so every dream is fun to chase except mines

I finally have more freedom but lack the interest that I once had to live life

I spent most of this tape wanting to hear “oo sick rhymes”

Instead of making lasting music that’ll leave their mark in time

Wishing that I held my tongue like back when I had a lisp and

How can years ago feel like yesterday yet tomorrow feel so distant?

Turned 18 and now I'm thinking about who I'd wanna live with

Always sittin’ in my room just thinking one day I will exit

Mom playing Sweet home Alabama while Dad cracks jokes in the kitchen- Tryin’ not to cr,y thinking god I'll miss this

Drawing maps to Mount Moriah, god I'd go back in an instant

Xander getting married soon, Paige already did it

Logan's gonna be gone soon, friendship's about finished

I'll never see them again, so I’m in a position Of knowing I have to move on but not ready for the commitment

I choke up every time I watch a video of myself as an infant

Looking back at when I was happy just trying to find the difference

Sorry I just had to vent, sick of holding it in

But happiness gets farther and farther away the older you get

Why I can't I stop asking-