[Verse]

My heart is broken, I’m feelin’ open, and thoughts are flowin’ through my brain

I’m feelin’ pain, I’m feelin’ like I can’t keep goin’

My legs won’t move and my feet are slowin’, I’m overdosin’ on pure emotion

I’m coastin’ downhill, I feel like explodin’

I’m knowin’ that things were fine until they took a turn

How many times do I have to sit and cry until I fin’ly learn?

She’ll never say I love you back and words may hurt

But sometimes when you feel things deep inside, the silence can be worse, but I will return

If at first you don’t success, you know how the saying goes

Well that’s somethin’ I won’t believe, I’ve tried again, and I’ll have you know

I don’t agree, it doesn’t work the second time, and I’m rappin’ so

I can put my thoughts on paper ‘cause I’ve had it, I’m in my attackin’ zone

I’m mad at the fact this girl won’t like me back

I have been waitin’ so patiently, and I can’t stand it

I have to confess in this rap that my brain has been elsewhere, my mind’s been off-track

It’s been so long, I still haven’t made any moves yet

I’m too scared that my love will get lost and I’ll lose it

And I can’t imagine a world without her included

But at the end of the day, there’s really nothin’ but truth left

The truth is I’m afraid, I would hate to die

Before I ever said my peace and that thought makes me cry

Inside I feel conflicted, I put on a straight face and lie

Because I can’t express the things trapped inside my closed mind

It’s all darkness, my thoughts are harnessed, my heart is starvin’

I work my hardest, but it seems to me, I’m still the farthest

Away from her, I’m heartless

I’m colder than the arctic, but I will try regardless ’til I’m a livin’ carcass

I will try until there’s nothin’ left inside of me

I’m just happy for all of the things she has provided me

I’ve changed since I met her, she invited me

To a different world, she guided me

And gave me a new outlook on society

Maybe things aren’t as bad as I thought before

When I’m around her, I’m happy, and I long for more

I don’t have to second guess, damn, I know for sure

That she’s the one that I’ve been dreaming of and lookin’ for

I’m tryna get her outta my mind, but it’s not workin’

In the meantime, she’ll have to go on the back burner

I’ve got priorities but the pain won’t stop hurtin’

I’m learnin’ to cope with my struggles and conquer them

I have to live and learn from my mistakes, give more than I take

Take opportunities ‘fore I’m too late, I may

Get down and out, but I will find my way

I’m sayin’ that my mind needs to be in a different state

My thoughts are spontaneous like aliens invading us

They came to my mind like instantaneous, my cranium is craziness

I’m as strong as titanium, thoughts miscellaneous

But I just hate when people step inside my radius

Leave me alone, give me some space

Don’t hit up my phone, my mind’s in another place, I just can’t think straight

Sometimes I write these raps ‘bout what I want to be doin’

And I lose sight of the small goals that I am really pursuin’

I feel I’m winnin’, I’m losin’

‘Cause no matter what I do, I feel my future is ruined, that’s true, and

I find one thing that brings me joy, I set my mind to it

And most of you people can’t relate to what I’m doin’

I’m on a different level, so don’t say that you know me through it

Through all the things that have taken control of me

That made me change my lifestyle and the way I think

Damn, y’all can’t do it the way that I do it

Now rap is what I spend my time doin’, I’m always lookin’ to fine-tune it

To perfect my craft, and y’all just laugh because I chose a different path

I’m on my way to greatness, I put haters in the past

I’m risin’ fast, but I don’t do it for the cash

I’m just tryna make a livin’ doin’ what I love, rap is my passion

Now I’m takin’ action

It might sound stupid, don’t think I don’t see you laughin’

Swing first, I’m reactin’, it is like relapsin’

Every single time I write a rhyme, I feel I’m everlastin’

I owe it all to God, I would not be here without Him

There is somethin’ wrong with you if you think that you doubt Him

Don’t hate on the Lord when you know nothing about Him

Your heart is closed off, you’re trying not to allow Him

To be a part of your life, it is like a war, I’m

Trying to get more people to believe in Him, you’re fine

If you praise Him for all of the things you have

Believe me, I know that He will bring more light, more time

I wish I had more time on Earth so I, could change more people’s lives

I’m tryin’ so hard, I don’t know what I’m doin’ though

I have got a dream, and I’m tryna see it through though

Everyday there’s new highs, everyday there’s new lows

Sometimes, I just wonder where I’ll end up, who knows

I’m puttin’ all my effort into this and things get missed and I could create a list

Of all of the things people want me to do, and I’m pissed

I’m stickin’ up the finger in the middle of my fist

Listen, I’ve said it a million times, I’ve got a dream

I’m tryna stay on my grind, and you know that I mean what I say, and say what I mean

I don’t mess around when it comes to these things

My main goal is to be inspiring, but I’m finding it hard to spread my wings

People have these expectations, I lose their words in translation

I’m just tryna make a living, but I don’t need a vacation

I don’t even need to take a break, but sometimes things get in the way

I hate authority that tries to tell me what I cannot say

I can’t wait ’til I move out, and I hope this will work out

There are very few things that I cannot live without

I thought I had it all planned out

Dream job, dream wife, dream house, dream life

It is still in my mind, even if it’s out of sight

I’m dreamin’ about doin’ somethin’ that I like

Somethin’ I have a passion for, and somethin’ that is right

I have found, now that I look back

Rap, has changed me, and that’s a fact

I act fast every time I think of a bar

I scribble and scratch it down on the pad

I’m glad for the things that I have

Maybe this won’t turn out so bad

But this world just makes me mad

I just don’t wanna reminisce and look back

And think about the things that I could’ve had

When I find somethin’ I love, I focus and devote my whole heart and soul to it, I go to it

I try to grow close to it, and get close as I can before I’m blown to bits

By the fact things won’t work out, I’m hurt now

I don’t know how to love, I’m tryna learn how

People tellin’ me it’ll turn out, and I don’t even know if I’ll make it across the line before I burn out

Got these thoughts on my mind all the time, it’s a grind

Just to get through the day without cryin’ inside

‘Cause there’s things that I want but can’t get

I’ll admit, that I lie to myself, but I know I can’t quit

I will wait as long as it takes

I keep it a one hundred, why would this be fake

I’ve got a name that I would like to make

And I’ll do it all, or all that it takes

It might be a problem, the problem’s all mine

Sometimes I think too much and step out of line

There’s only a few things that take up my time

But that is the life I live with a closed mind, no lie