Spit out my drink on the shelf

Think to myself

What is left

Is there anything else

Hang up my belt

How I felt doesn't matter

I melt

I'm wet batter

I'm sweltering hot

But I'm not what I thought

The plot thickens then rots

Not the pick of the lot

Flick at my watch

Ticking them off like seconds

And then I cough

The trough of liquor down in my belly

Smelly with sauce

I'm jealous with thoughts

Awkward, I tell us aloft

Baby I'm trying to be good

Maybe I'm tying my hood tighter

A fighter flicking my lighter at petrified wood

Maybe I'm misunderstood

Burning and pissing in soot

Lazy but kicking my foot

Skating on thin ice and mud

Debating to weather the flood

Hating

No better than God wasting a litter of dogs

I bite them then spit and applaud

Writing a letter of fraud

To my mom, my sister then long gone

I'm wrong

I don't belong to this planet I'm on

God it's just so easy to point my finger and leave

But don't let this place get the best of me

Cause it's just

I've got one thing I need to retrieve

Don't let this place get the best of me

Now I'm in a spot I've never known

I thought I was grown

Thought I just guessed I could hold my own

So I left me alone

Started to sleep on my throne

Home is a drink and a cone

Can't even think and atone

Won't even blink at the phone

Sorry I have to be here

Couldn't just pass up the fear

Willing to give it my all to fall and laugh at the tears

Years just passing me by

Bye to my life and my pride

Why do I try

I'll just get high and stifle the fight

If I could take back what drove me mad

I wouldn't take back the bad

The greatest times that I had went with them

And even that alone is enough

Stuff the shit up inside

Puff then poof

It goes away like vision at night

Pardon me I'd give my right nut

To cut some of these scenes from this bloody debut

Strut then run at my dreams

Seems my dreams are all I need

God it's just so easy to point my finger and leave

But don't let this place get the best of me

Cause it's just

I've got one thing I need to retrieve

Don't let this place get the best of me