this is one of my favorite songs I’ve made/written.

this one goes out to a person who has a lot to do with why i’m here right now, and why i make songs.

its to my grandfather who died from cancer.[Verse 1]

(yeah) i know its been a while since i talked to you, but i still can't smile

(yeah)I’ve been writing you letter;s for a while now, but it doesn't seem to be getting any better

Flower pedal after flower pedal falls when i got that call

Now letter after letter i write, tryna cope with your death

But we ran outta soap, so i tried some dope and hung my soul from a rope

Letter after letter when will i send em, when will you get em

Spend em like some cash, when ashes come to ashes my heart smashes into pieces

Push and shove they say eventually we all have to move on

His body may be dead but in your head he survives alive and well

So don't dwell on the past cause it never lasts

In this cold world you can’t hold on to stuff forever, cause every one dies

One minute your hear watching TV with me, then the next your not

Now I'm not sure where you are, but i pray that we meat again

But untell then I say goodbye and fare well. May we meat again in this world or the next

[Chorus]

(yeah) I've been watching the years pass by, crying tears and facing my fears

Writing all these letters but life don't seem to be getting any better

Seasons changing like the wind, but i can't control the weather

Man i always thought wed be together forever

But now that your gone there's no one to pull us together

If life's the big race we just can't keep up the pace

Let alone look at your face without crying, inside i’m dying

(yeah) i see all these stars in the sky shining, maybe you are one of them

[Verse 2]

No debate that i hate to say this is gonna be my last letter

But if it helps you not to be sad, i’m glade your looking better

Cause as far as i can see, all the bruises have peeled off and healed

Kevin we send our love signed sealed and delivered like a shield for you to wield

(yeah) i know you ain't the tallest, but you got the biggest heart of them all.l

Now i hope you know that mean’s a lot coming from me, cause i took it from my bleeding heart

Living life day by day without you, man its so hard

Why couldn't i have four seen this before you where long gone

Mama was dancer and you lost your life to cancer

Now i'm left alone and afraid to pick up the pieces

Life's the race i’m just tryna keep up the pace, but i fell down at the start

Push and shove now i gotta move on, but i feel like i left the stove on

Burned the house down to the ground without a sound

[Chorus]

(yeah) I've been watching the years pass by, crying tears and facing my fears

Writing all these letters but life don't seem to be getting any better

Seasons changing like the wind, but i can't control the weather

Man i always thought wed be together forever

But now that your gone there's no one to pull us together

If life's the big race we just can't keep up the pace

Let alone look at your face without crying, inside i'm dying

(yeah) i see all these stars in the sky shining, maybe you are one of them

[verse 3]

So Kevin can you even hear me let alone see me

I look for you everyday, every way i can but never find you

Like it's a game of hiding seek, man i'm i speaking to myself at this point i'm all outta joints

I'm running out of breath looking for the grandpa that good took form me

Walking up in his house like he left me a key, never looking back cause i made a pack

Your body's barred but this weight i gotta carry on my back