[Verse 1]

There's some things that I'll take to my grave

There's some things I don't think I should say

I'm don't think that I'm somebody you could save

I don't know, I kinda like it that way

Daddy love to get high

In his room, watch the time go by

Needles all on his bed

I cut it going and I didn't know why

Mamma, she used to cry

20 years by, mamma still cries

Mamma talk suicide

Hate seeing it, but I don't wanna lie

I still need you, I feel like I'm still young

I've been so lost, I've been so gone

I've been so drunk that I can't stand up

I'll be standing with you when the day come

Look at my smile, how does it look to you?

I put it on so I can feel like I'm bulletproof

Product of environment, ah, look at the irony

Grew up so nice but that changed up entirely

I found Benzos' the same time I found love

Like, what a mixer, what a drug

I was eighteen, I was fucked up

Like living in my car, but still untouched

[Verse 2]

They talk about my older ways

Said I'm "fucked up", wasn't raised right, wow

You know you never judge a book by it's cover page

I've been standing [?] my bed

Where my uncle lost his life and died inside mine instead

Yeah, uh

You take a second to picture:

Tenth grade, didn't know how to deal, I turned to liquor

'Nother family member gone, all I knew was a song

Writing bars ain't enough, I pop bars [?] they gone

'Til my homies car crashed, went to jail that night

Woke up, "what the fuck happened?", high as a kite

I called my mom and she ain't answer, she pissed off as fuck

Wish I had a dad to call but I'm shit out of luck

And on top of that, I blew my whole first advance

Which means I got money, blew it all, owe it all back

'Cause my records ain't selling, and I'm too hot for shows

No one believes in my recovery, I've gone as a ghost

Yeah, it's me against the world ain't it?

I love that shit, so I took that bitch and I made it mine

You see, my best friend stole for me, thousands of dollars

When I was down and I was broke, and had nothing to bother

Had a dog that needed feeding, ain't had shit but a collar

And a landlord trying to get money to feed his daughter

Had a dad dying on my hands, asking for help

I went to London, got him off heroin by myself

I took care of my sister, to the best of my abilities

Helping mom through her depression, that shit is killing me

Yeah, but I guess that's just the will in me

Think that I'ma fail after that? Man, you're kidding me

I said yeah man, you're kidding me

Failing after that? Yeah man, you're kidding me

[Outro]

Every moment in my life, came at me with a price

And I never had the cash, but I would always roll the dice

Like, I never thought twice, I was destined for the lights

I look above to my family for a message every night

And I swear, I hear them talk to me, full volume, like the show

Every time that I'm down, I look up and then I know

I said so, that's for sure, but I do this all for you

Myself and my family, that's the funeral crew